A thing that I've noticed and thought a lot about is that nowadays it seems like no one can handle silence. We're bombarded with music and screens everywhere we turn. And even when we're alone most of us turn on music or the TV.
I remember one weekend my husband was away, so I had to be home alone. It was one of the worst weekends I can remember. At the moment I wasn't in a good place. I had a bit of anxiety occasionally. And I remember being so afraid of being alone and getting anxiety that for the entire weekend I had Netflix on. Didn't spend a minute in peace and silence. And I felt terrible about it! It was the worst feeling, being afraid of your own thoughts and feelings. So when Sunday arrived I couldn't take it anymore. I had to do something about it. So I turned off all electronics, made a fire and lit a lot of candles. I made space for myself, space to be alone and not feel sorry for myself.
Once I actually was able to pull myself together and turn off everything I noticed that it was only then I could actually be in peace. When I started listening to my own thoughts I discovered that they weren't so scary, they didn't bring the anxiety I was fearing. And I actually started enjoying turning off the music more often after that.
There are so many that always put on some music when they go for a run or a walk. I used to be that person, but I'm not anymore. I believe you'll learn a lot about yourself by actually listen to your own thoughts once in a while.
This is my challenge to you: take some time this weekend when you don't have anything else going on, and spend it on you. Do something you really enjoy and will get you relaxed, maybe even turn off your phone. Listen to what's going on inside of you.
I'd be glad to hear if you've done it!