Even though Christmas times are all festive and fun it's also a time filled with stress and to do-lists. I think most of us have a couple of days before Christmas in an "almost-breakdown-state", at least I do. My nerves can't handle the pressure I put on myself to clean the house into perfect condition, while at the same time make Christmas gifts, bake sweets and have a relaxed time. And as for us who study there are most often a lot of deadlines around this time as well. This equation just doesn't work.
I kind of had a small breakdown today. After I had been studying for most of the day I started crying, because I had no time or energy for all the other things I had planned for the day. I decided to change the mood I was in, because it ain't fun being there. The best way I know to change my mood around is to put on really good music. For me worship music is the best way of changing my thoughts. Works every time, after just a couple of beats I'm way better. Today I put on Chris Tomlin's Christmas album for the first time. And it was good! Other times I put on anything by Leeland. Every time I do this I'm amazed by the power good worship music has.
So after I was in a better state of mind I felt like doing something for me, a moment of pure happiness. Today that was baking. When I'm allowed to do it without the pressure of time it's joyful. So now I'm going make a cup of tea and enjoy my banana bread. Perhaps I'll have more energy tomorrow to finish off the things I had planned for today.
When we got married I never thought I would have to share my camera with Andreas. Then he started wood working more seriously, and with that he got an interest for photography. I am thrilled about that, and he's getting so good at it. But that means that I'm at home now with no camera to shoot with. Have to use an old bit good photo to decorate the blog post for now. I think we might need to get another camera soon. But they're so expensive.
I really hope you're all able to take time this Christmas to enjoy the moment. And to do something you really like, just for you.